I haven’t posted in a hot miunte. Here’s why…
If you had told me five years ago that I’d one day be writing a blog post telling people I am pregnant, I would have laughed, cried, or possibly thrown a fertility medication at you. Not in a mean way — just in a “my hormones are 97% pharmaceutical-grade chaos” way.
But here I am. Five weeks pregnant.
Five.
Weeks.
Pregnant.
Which, for anyone unfamiliar with early pregnancy math, means I am currently the proud host of something roughly the size of a sesame seed who is already dictating my sleep schedule, my appetite, and my emotional stability. Incredible.
The Plot Twist I Didn’t See Coming
After five years of infertility — five years of appointments, needles, waiting rooms, hope, heartbreak, and Googling things no human should ever Google — I had quietly made peace with the idea that maybe this wasn’t going to happen for me.
And then it did.
Except instead of the movie moment where I gasp, clutch the pregnancy test, and sink gracefully to the bathroom floor in a soft, cinematic cry… I stared at the test like it was a prank. Then I took another. Then another. Then I made my husband look at them under three different lighting conditions like we were appraising diamonds.
Romantic, I know.
Joy, But Make It Complicated
Here’s the truth: I am happy. I am terrified. I am grateful. I am grieving. I am hopeful. I am all of these things at the same time, and if that sounds exhausting, trust me — it is.
Infertility doesn’t just switch off because a test turns positive. It lingers. It shadows. It whispers, “Are you sure?” every time you feel a cramp or don’t feel a symptom or wake up at 3 a.m. convinced you dreamt the whole thing.
I’m still checking for bad news the way some people check the weather.
But I’m also letting myself feel joy — tiny, cautious, trembling joy — because this moment deserves to be felt.
For Anyone Still Waiting
If you are reading this and you’re still in the thick of it — still waiting, still hoping, still hurting — I want you to know something:
I see you.
I remember the sting of pregnancy announcements. I remember the way hope can feel like both a lifeline and a punishment. I remember the months that felt like years and the years that felt like a lifetime.
Nothing about my news erases that version of me, or the version of you who is still fighting.
I’m not “on the other side.” I’m just in a new chapter of the same story — one that began with longing, loss, and resilience. And I will never forget the people still standing in the storm.
If you need to mute me, skip this post, or take space, please do. Protect your heart. I would.
What Comes Next
I don’t know what the next weeks will bring. I don’t know how this story will unfold. But for the first time in a long time, I feel something that looks suspiciously like hope.
Messy hope. Fragile hope. Hope with trust issues.
But hope, nonetheless.
And today, that’s enough.
Tag: writing
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Hi, future me.
If you’re reading this, congratulations. You survived… well, this. Whatever “this” was. The waiting, the hoping, the spiraling, the dramatic monologues delivered to the dogs, the snacks eaten at questionable hours, the emotional support coloring pages, the “I’m fine”s that fooled no one.
I’m writing this from a season that feels like a long, shaky inhale. You remember it. You lived it. You probably still have the stress‑induced forehead wrinkle from it (but maybe not cause I have a good moisturizer now.)
Right now, I’m doing that thing where I try to be calm and grounded, but my brain is basically a squirrel on espresso. I’m trying to trust the process, but the process is taking its sweet time, and I am not known for my patience. I’m trying to be hopeful without getting ahead of myself, which is like asking me to walk past a dog without saying “hi.” Impossible.
I hope you look back at me with kindness. I hope you remember how hard I tried — even on the days when “trying” looked like lying on the couch under a blanket while Lenny judged me from across the room and Gilbert attempted to solve my emotional distress by sitting directly on my chest.
I hope you’re proud of how you handled this chapter. Not because it was graceful (it wasn’t) or because you stayed calm (you didn’t), but because you kept going. You kept loving. You kept showing up for your people, even when your own heart felt like a half‑written sentence.
I hope you didn’t lose your softness. The world tries so hard to sand that down, but you’ve always held onto it like a stubborn little Hufflepuff badger clutching a blanket. I hope you still laugh at your own jokes. I hope you still find magic in the mundane — the way James hands you snacks without being asked, and the way your family group chat is 90% chaos.
And listen — if things turned out beautifully, pause. Really pause. Let yourself feel it. Let yourself be proud. Let yourself celebrate without immediately worrying about the next thing. You deserve that joy.
If things turned out differently than you hoped, I know you handled it with the same stubborn heart and quiet courage that has carried you through every plot twist so far. You’ve never once stayed down for long. You’re basically emotionally elastic at this point.
Wherever you are, I hope you’re still writing. Still noticing the tiny details. Still turning your life into stories that make people feel seen. Still choosing humor even when things are messy. Still choosing softness even when things are hard.
And I hope — truly — that you look back at me, the version sitting here typing this with a knot in her stomach and hope in her chest, and think:
She did her best. She kept going. She made it here.
Keep wandering, future me. Keep loving big. Keep choosing joy, even when it feels like work.
—Kelsey
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A love letter to my irrational brain, which is just trying its best.
Let’s take a gentle stroll through the woods of my psyche—don’t worry, it’s well-lit, there are snacks, and the poodles are here for emotional support. Today’s topic: my biggest fears, ranked not by severity (FYI).
💀 1. Death & Dying: The Classic Crowd Favorite
Look, I know this one is universal, but my brain treats it like a hobby. Some people collect stamps; I collect intrusive thoughts about mortality while brushing my teeth.
I’ll be minding my business, doing something wholesome like folding laundry, when suddenly my brain whispers, “One day you won’t exist.”
Thank you, brain. Very cool. Very relaxing.I try to comfort myself by imagining I’ll become a ghost who lightly haunts people by rearranging their throw pillows. If I must go, I’m going with cozy chaos.
🎈 2. Balloons: The Silent Menace
Some people see balloons and think “party.”
I see balloons and think “unpredictable airborne landmines.”They sit there, all shiny and innocent, but at any moment—any moment—they could explode with the emotional force of a thousand jump scares. And don’t even get me started on people who twist balloon animals. Why would you willingly handle a pressurized rubber bomb? Why?
If you ever see me at a birthday party, just know I’m smiling through the fear.
🕷️ 3. Spiders: Eight Legs Too Many
I respect nature. I love nature. I do not love nature when it enters my home.
Spiders always show up like they’re delivering bad news. They don’t walk—they arrive. And they always choose the worst possible moment:
- Shower time
- Bedtime
- Any time I’m home alone and feeling emotionally fragile
I don’t kill them because I’m a good person (and also because James saves them and their precious, yucky lives).
🧗 4. Heights: Because Gravity Has Never Been My Friend
I don’t trust anything that requires me to be more than two feet off the ground. Ladders? No. Ferris wheels? Absolutely not. Glass floors in tall buildings? Jail.
My legs turn to overcooked noodles the moment I’m elevated. I once climbed a small hill and immediately began drafting my will. I’m not built for vertical adventures. I’m built for horizontal lounging.
🎥 5. Scary Movies: Why Pay to Suffer?
Some people love scary movies because they enjoy the adrenaline. I enjoy not having nightmares for six to eight business days.
If I watch a horror movie, I become a full-time paranormal investigator in my own home. Every creak? Ghost. Every shadow? Demon. Every poodle staring into the corner like they see something? I’m moving.
I don’t need fictional terror. My life is scary enough.
🌿 Final Thoughts
Fear is a natural part of being human, and honestly, mine keep life interesting. They also give my family endless entertainment, which I consider a public service.
If you share any of these fears, welcome to the club. We meet weekly. Snacks provided. Balloons strictly forbidden.
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Waiting should be simple. You sit. You breathe. You exist.
But no—my brain treats waiting like an Olympic sport, complete with emotional gymnastics, mental sprinting, and the occasional dramatic collapse onto the metaphorical floor.Whether it’s waiting for good news, bad news, or the kind of news that could tilt your whole life in a new direction, the experience is the same: a slow, creeping unraveling of sanity wrapped in a blanket of hope, dread, and overthinking.
🎢 The Emotional Roller Coaster Nobody Asked For
Waiting is never just waiting. It’s a full-body, full-brain experience. One minute you’re fine—calm, rational, sipping tea like a serene woodland creature. The next minute you’re spiraling into a Google search that absolutely did not need to happen.
There are stages. Oh, there are stages.
1. The Optimist Era
This is the phase where you’re basically a motivational poster.
“It’s going to be fine.”
“Everything works out.”
“The universe loves me.”You’re glowing. You’re hopeful. You’re borderline delusional. It’s adorable.
2. The Doom Spiral
Then, without warning, your brain flips the switch.
Suddenly every possible worst-case scenario is not only possible but probable.
You start mentally drafting your acceptance speech for the Worst Luck of the Year Awards.3. The Distraction Olympics
You try to keep busy.
You clean things that do not need cleaning.
You alphabetize your books (again).
You consider taking up knitting (joking).
You stare at your phone like it owes you money.4. The Bargaining Phase
You start negotiating with the universe like you’re trying to close a business deal.
“If this goes well, I swear I’ll drink more water.”
“If you give me good news, I’ll stop doomscrolling.”
(You will not.)5. The Numb Zone
Eventually, you hit a point where your brain just… powers down.
You’re not hopeful. You’re not anxious. You’re just a potato with a pulse.
A waiting potato.6. The Moment of Truth
And then—finally—the news arrives.
Good or bad, the waiting ends.
Your brain unclenches. Your shoulders drop. You remember how to breathe again.And you realize the waiting was the hardest part.
🧠 Why Waiting Feels So Intense
Because waiting is a vacuum.
And the human brain hates a vacuum.
So it fills it—with stories, predictions, fears, fantasies, and the occasional imaginary argument with someone who isn’t even involved.Waiting forces you to sit with uncertainty, and uncertainty is uncomfortable. It pokes at every soft part of you. It exposes how much you care. It reveals the stakes. It makes you feel vulnerable in a way that’s both terrifying and deeply human.
🌱 But Here’s the Quiet Truth
Waiting means you’re hoping for something.
It means something matters.
It means you’re standing on the edge of a moment that could change your life, even in a small way.And that’s brave.
So if you’re in a season of waiting—whether for good news, bad news, or the kind of news that will shape the next chapter—be gentle with yourself. Let your brain cycle through its funhouse modes. Let yourself be hopeful, terrified, distracted, dramatic, numb, all of it.
Waiting is messy.
Waiting is human.
Waiting is a story in itself.And when the moment finally comes, you’ll know you survived something quietly enormous.
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There are comfort shows, and then there is Grey’s Anatomy — my emotional support television program, my background noise soulmate, my long-term situationship. At this point, I’m not just rewatching it. I’m in a committed, legally binding relationship with it. This is my 8,449,582,075,324th rewatch (give or take a few), and honestly, it still hits every single time.
Some people meditate. Some people journal. I, however, choose to re-experience the chaos of Seattle Grace/Grey Sloan Memorial like it’s the first time all over again. It’s my favorite show, my comfort blanket, and my emotional cardio.
Why Grey’s Anatomy Still Owns My Entire Heart
✨ The Drama
No one — and I mean no one — does drama like this show. Plane crashes, ferry crashes, bombs in body cavities, love triangles, love squares, love… geometric shapes. It’s unhinged in the best way.
✨ The Characters
I know these people better than I know some of my own relatives. Meredith? My girl. Cristina? My personal role model. Bailey? My moral compass. Alex Karev? A character arc so good it should be studied in schools.
✨ The Comfort
There’s something deeply soothing about watching surgeons sprint down hallways while my biggest task is deciding which snack to eat next. It’s like emotional ASMR.
✨ The Nostalgia
Every rewatch is a time capsule. I remember where I was the first time I watched certain episodes. I remember who I was. And somehow, the show grows with me — or maybe I just keep getting more dramatic. Hard to say.
What This Rewatch Is Teaching Me
- I will never be over certain character exits. Never. Don’t ask me to be.
- I still gasp at plot twists I already know are coming.
- I am, in fact, a Hufflepuff who thrives on cozy chaos, and Grey’s Anatomy is the perfect soundtrack for that vibe.
- My poodles absolutely judge me for crying at fictional surgeons, but they also cuddle me through it, so who’s really winning.
Will I Ever Stop Rewatching It?
No. Absolutely not. This show is my emotional support spaghetti. It’s warm, familiar, and slightly unhinged — just like me.
And honestly, if loving Grey’s Anatomy this much is wrong, I don’t want to be right.
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Because if you want something done brilliantly, competently, and with the appropriate level of sarcasm, you do it yourself.
Today we gather to celebrate the life of a woman who lived exactly the way she wanted: stubbornly, hilariously, and with the kind of confidence that made people say, “Well… she’s not wrong.” – Side note, I never am.
Kelsey was many things—
stubborn enough to argue with a brick wall,
funny enough to make the brick wall laugh,
sarcastic enough to make it question its life choices,
ambitious enough to try to reorganize the universe,
assertive enough to tell the universe it was doing it wrong,
bold enough to wear peacock-themed anything without hesitation,
brilliant enough to make it work,
competent enough to run her life like a cozy, color-coded empire,
clever enough to get away with it,
confident enough to assume everyone would thank her later,
thoughtfully organized enough to create lists about her lists,
detail-oriented enough to remember birthdays, snack preferences, and which drawer the good pens lived in,
sentimental enough to cry at commercials featuring dogs,
observant enough to stop mid-sentence to beep at cows or stare lovingly at a passing dog,
a cozy soul who believed in comfort rituals and warm corners,
protective enough to go full mama-bear if someone messed with her people,
and loyal enough to stand by those she loved long after everyone else had gone home.She lived like a well-planned spreadsheet wrapped in a soft blanket, with a warning label that read: “Do not test her patience or threaten her family.”
💛 Her People (aka: The Ones She Bossed Around With Love)
James, her husband, survives her—emotionally stable, snack-equipped, and probably still shaking his head fondly. He was her calm in the chaos, her grounding force, and the only person she allowed to see her soft underbelly (metaphorically; she was not a possum). He also tolerated her need to plan everything three steps ahead, including this eulogy. If anyone ever hurt him, she would’ve simply said, “Give me five minutes,” and returned with a suspiciously clean alibi.
Jasmine, her sister, will forever carry the torch of clever commentary and heartfelt support. She always said Kelsey’s writing was something you felt, which is exactly the kind of poetic line Kelsey would steal for her blog and pretend she came up with. Their bond was equal parts tenderness and chaos, and Kelsey would’ve fought a small army for her.
Michelle, her mother, described her as fierce, loyal, and blunt—
a combination that made Kelsey both a delight and a mild hazard at family gatherings. But beneath the sarcasm and stubbornness lived a tenderness that Michelle recognized instantly, because she had it too.Chico, her father, contributed to her boldness, her humor, and her ability to deliver a one-liner with surgical precision. He also passed down the family trait of observing the world with quiet amusement.
Steven, the brother in law, will be there too, probably standing at the back in full RCMP posture, wondering how he ended up related to a woman who once cried because she dropped a taco. He’ll be the steady one, the composed one, the one making sure no one steals the floral arrangements or messes with her perfect funeral. A true public servant.
And of course, the entire Wood’s clan, a group of lovable characters who supported her, and provided endless material for her storytelling. They were her chaos, her comfort, and her favorite cast of recurring characters. She would’ve defended any one of them with the kind of loyalty that makes people say, “Oh no… she’s serious.”
🐩 Her Poodles (The Real Main Characters)
Let us not forget Lenny and Gilbert, her dramatic, fluffy sons.
They were her shadows, her muses, her emotional support chaos gremlins.
They will miss her terribly, though they will absolutely continue to demand snacks on her behalf.They were also the reason she stopped to stare at dogs on walks — because she believed in appreciating greatness when she saw it. And heaven help anyone who threatened her poodles; she would’ve burned down a village.
🌲 Her Legacy
Kelsey leaves behind:
- A trail of half-finished art projects that were still somehow beautiful
- A blog full of humor, heart, and the occasional existential spiral
- A home organized with the precision of a general and the coziness of a Pinterest board
- A family who adored her
- Two poodles who believed she hung the moon
- A fiercely protected circle of loved ones who always felt safe with her
- And a world slightly more colorful, slightly more sarcastic, and significantly more organized than she found it
She lived boldly. She loved fiercely. She laughed loudly.
She felt deeply. She noticed everything.
She protected her people like it was her full-time job.
And she refused—utterly refused—to be boring.✨ Final Words (Naturally, She Gets the Last One)
“If you’re reading this, I have either died or dramatically faked my death for content. Either way, please remember me as I was: brilliant, stubborn, loyal, sentimental, and probably right.”
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🎵 This Week’s Pick: Hardwood Floor – Morgan Wade
🗂 The Ratings
Lyrics: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️☆
There’s something about the way Morgan Wade writes that feels like she’s naming emotions you’ve been carrying around without realizing it. These lyrics hit that raw, quietly vulnerable place — poetic in the way real life is poetic when you’re trying to hold yourself together.
Vibes: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Steady, aching, grounded. It’s the soundtrack of a week where you’re doing your best to stay soft even when everything feels sharp. It has that “I’m okay, but also… am I?” energy that pairs well with deep breaths and long waits.
Cry‑in‑the‑Car Potential:
🥲 One dramatic tear
Not a full unraveling — more like the kind of tear that slips out when you’re trying to be strong for the fifteenth appointment, the fifteenth phone call, the fifteenth round of hope.
Main‑Character Energy:
Final scene montage
This is the song that plays when you’re walking out of a doctor’s office, or sitting in your car afterward, letting yourself feel everything for a moment before stepping back into the world.
Best Time to Listen:
While sitting on the edge of your bed after another early‑morning appointment, letting the quiet settle around you before the day starts.
📊 Bonus Categories
Would I Skip It?
Never.
Dog Walk Approved?
🐶 Only in dramatic weather.
Preferably on a windy day when Lenny and Gilbert are trotting like tiny emotional support clouds.
Book Genre Match:
Self‑discovery memoir
The kind where the narrator is learning how to hold hope and frustration in the same hand.
✍️ Mini Reflection
I picked this song because it feels like the emotional texture of this season — steady on the outside, splintered in small places on the inside. This week has been full of waiting, wondering, and trying to stay grounded in a process that asks for so much patience. “Hardwood Floor” feels like the soundtrack to holding hope gently, even when it feels fragile. It’s the kind of song that lets you breathe a little deeper, even if nothing is resolved yet. -
I like to think of myself as a calm, reasonable adult. I drink water. I color inside the lines. I love my poodles. I mind my business. But there are certain things — tiny, microscopic, atom-sized things — that flip a switch in my brain so fast it’s like watching a cartoon character go from 🙂 to 😡 with steam shooting out of their ears.
These are my triggers. My icks. My personal red flags. My emotional landmines.
And yes, I know they’re irrational. That’s what makes them fun.
🎬 When People Don’t Know What Movie I’m Quoting
I drop a perfectly timed movie quote — a gift, really — and you stare at me like I’ve just recited ancient runes? My soul packs its bags and leaves my body. The joke dies. The moment dies. I die. Now I’m explaining the quote, which is the comedic equivalent of explaining why a joke is funny. Spoiler: it’s not anymore.
🧊 When People Use My Ice Machine and Don’t Refill the Water
My ice machine is my emotional support appliance. If you use it and don’t refill the water, you have personally wronged me on a spiritual level. I go to get ice, and instead it makes that sad, gasping noise like it’s reenacting its final scene. Now I’m the one doing CPR on the appliance you emotionally neglected.
🎨 When People Color Outside the Lines
I know it’s “creative expression.” I know it’s “relaxing.” But when I see someone casually scribble across the lines like they’re rebelling against society, my eyelid twitches. I may tell you to fix it.
🖍️ When People Don’t Color a Picture the Way I Would
This is different. This is when someone stays inside the lines but chooses colors that make NO SENSE. A purple tree? A neon orange cat? A sky that looks like radioactive pea soup? I have to look away like I’ve witnessed a felony.
📚 Slow Readers
If we’re reading something together and I finish and you’re still on the first paragraph, I start aging. I’m suddenly 97 years old, sitting in a rocking chair, telling stories about “back in my day.”
🧠 Stupid People
Not people who don’t know things — that’s fine. I mean the confidently wrong people. The “I Googled one sentence and now I’m an expert” people. The “I don’t believe in facts” people. My brain just… shuts down for self-preservation.
🗣️ When I Get Interrupted
If I’m mid-story and someone cuts me off, the story is dead. I’m not finishing it. The moment has passed. The vibe has evaporated. I am now silent and thinking about plotting your death.
🧺 Dirty Clothes Left on the Floor
The hamper is RIGHT THERE. Inches away. Practically begging to be used. And yet… the floor becomes the chosen one. Why? For what purpose? What did the floor do to deserve this burden?
🧠 When People Don’t Think the Way I Do About Stuff
I’m not saying I’m always right. I’m just saying I’m rarely wrong. And when someone has an opinion that is objectively incorrect (according to me), I have to take a deep breath and remember that “different perspectives” are a thing we’re supposed to appreciate.
🍎 Loud Smacking or Apple Crunching
If you chew with your mouth open, I will hear it in my bones. If you crunch an apple like you’re trying to break the sound barrier, I will ascend out of my body in pure rage and haunt you.
⏰ People Who Are Late
If you’re late, I’m already mentally writing you out of my will. I operate on “if you’re not early, you’re late,” so when someone strolls in 15 minutes past the agreed time with a casual “sorry,” I have to resist the urge to rage.
👣 People Dragging Their Feet When They Walk
Pick. Up. Your. Feet. The shuffle-shuffle sound makes me feel like I’m being followed by a bored ghost who wants attention.
🍽️ When I Am Hungry
This one is self-explanatory. Hunger turns me into a tiny, irritable gremlin who cannot be reasoned with. Feed me or flee.
In Summary: I Am Delicate
These things shouldn’t ruin my mood. They absolutely do. But honestly? They’re part of my charm. They’re the seasoning on the dish that is my personality — a little spice, a little chaos, a little “why am I like this?”
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It’s happening.
Like… actually happening.
After what feels like 47 years of talking, planning, Googling, and me dramatically sighing into the void, we’re officially starting the IUI process.I always imagined this moment would feel cinematic — soft lighting, inspirational music, maybe a gentle breeze blowing my hair like I’m in a fertility-themed shampoo commercial. Instead, I’m a chaotic blend of terrified, excited, hopeful, nauseous, and “did I leave the stove on?” energy.
Apparently, when something truly matters, your brain throws a surprise party and invites every emotion you’ve ever had.
💛 The Weight of “Finally” (It’s Heavy, Okay?)
“Finally” is such a tiny word for something that carries so much.
It holds every appointment, every month of “maybe?”, every moment I wondered if my body got the memo about the assignment. It holds the quiet fears I didn’t always say out loud, and the hope I kept tucked away like a fragile little secret.
But “finally” also feels like a door cracking open.
Like the universe shrugging and saying, Alright, girl. Let’s give this a shot.🤍 Doing This Together
One thing keeping me grounded is my husband — the human equivalent of a weighted blanket.
He’s calm where I’m spiraling, steady where I’m vibrating with nerves, and somehow manages to make me laugh even when I’m clutching a fertility clinic pamphlet like it’s a hostage situation.
We’re walking into this as a team:
- Me: emotional raccoon with a planner
- Him: supportive golden retriever with a driver’s license
Honestly? It works.
🌈 Holding Two Feelings at Once (Apparently That’s Allowed)
I used to think fear meant doubt.
Now I’m learning fear can also mean this is important. That excitement and anxiety can sit together like two toddlers fighting over the same toy. That hope doesn’t have to be neat or tidy — it can be messy, loud, and a little sweaty.So yes, I’m scared.
But I’m also excited in a way that feels electric — like the good kind of roller coaster, not the kind that makes you question your life choices.✨ What Comes Next (Besides Me Stress-Eating)
I don’t know how this journey will unfold.
I don’t know how many twists or turns are ahead. But I do know this: we’re moving forward. We’re trying. We’re giving ourselves a chance.And that feels brave.
And hopeful.
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At 18, I was convinced adulthood would arrive like a software update: overnight, automatic, and with new features like “financial literacy” and “emotional stability.” Instead, I got patch notes like: “Bug fix: learned not to microwave foil.” If I could sit down with that girl — the one who thought she’d have a mortgage by 23 — I’d offer her a few lovingly sarcastic truths.
🌱 You don’t need a five‑year plan (you need a snack and a nap)
Everyone around you looks like they know what they’re doing. They don’t. They’re just walking fast and carrying clipboards. Life is less “strategic blueprint” and more “choose your own adventure, but the pages are out of order and someone spilled coffee on the map.”
🧡 Some friendships expire (like yogurt, but less clearly labeled)
You’ll cling to people because you think longevity equals loyalty. It doesn’t. Some people are meant for a season, some for a plot twist, and some for the group chat you’ll mute in five years. It’s fine. Let it be fine.
🎨 Your creativity is not a quirky side quest
All the doodling, writing, coloring, and dramatic journaling? That’s not a phase. That’s your brain saying, “Hey, this is who we are.” Spoiler: future you will spend an alarming amount of money on art supplies and call it “self‑care.”
🐾 Love is less fireworks, more “did you eat today?”
You think love is grand gestures and cinematic kisses in the rain. Actually, it’s someone who brings you snacks, listens to your spirals, and doesn’t judge you for talking to your poodles like they’re real people.
💸 Money is confusing for everyone
You will spend years pretending you understand RRSPs/Taxes. You don’t. No one does. Just learn the basics, avoid the shame spiral, and stop buying the cheapest shampoo — your hair deserves rights.
🧘♀️ Rest is not a reward
You will try to earn rest like it’s a gold star. Please stop. Rest is not a prize for productivity; it’s the reason you don’t cry in grocery store parking lots.
🌧️ Hard moments are not personal failures
You’ll have days where everything feels heavy and you assume it’s because you’re doing adulthood wrong. You’re not. You’re just human. And sometimes humans need to lie on the floor and stare at the ceiling fan.
🌟 Reinvention is your birthright
You’re allowed to change your mind, your style, your dreams, your boundaries, your hair color, your entire personality if needed. You’re not inconsistent — you’re evolving. Pokémon do it. So can you.
What I’d want 18‑year‑old me to feel?
Not intimidated. Not scolded. Just… relieved. I’d want her to know she doesn’t have to sprint into adulthood with perfect form. She can stumble, laugh, pivot, cry, and still end up with a life full of love, creativity, and two poodles who think (know) they’re the main characters.
In my opinion? She turned out pretty great.
Wandering in the Woods 